TW: caps, mentions of sex, healing
So, I’m thinking of a tender scenario about OC #2 and OC #1 where to prove that OC #2 isn’t a lesbian, OC #1 dares her to have sex with her, and if OC #2 doesn’t like it, then OC #2 isn’t a lesbian, and OC #1 promises to stop teasing her about it. Well, during it, OC #1 was cracking jokes, trying to lighten the mood, since OC #2 and be tense even when enjoying herself. OC #2 told her that they should just stop. OC #1 then gets insure and says that she should have never told OC #2 to have sex with her. OC #2 then asks if OC #1 regrets having sex with her. OC #1, not wanting to reveal her true feelings for OC #2, asks OC #2 if she regretted having sex with her instead. Then OC #2 gets insuire, because she DID like it, but she was raised in a homophobic household and feels bad for having a crush on her best friend who is a girl, OC #1.
OC #1, seeing that OC #2 is mentally struggling, says, “Hey, nobody has all the answers right away. Learning, especially learning about yourself, takes time. If you're questioning your sexuality, then that's fine. Take your time to process how you feel before labeling yourself. Your parents don't define who you are. YOU define who you are.”.
I’m crying. I don’t know why I’m crying just thinking about that. I don’t know why that’s rocked me so hard. I guess I just really needed to hear that. Even if it was from myself. Is this acceptance? Am I accepting myself? Is this the first step in the healing process of understanding my queer identity? Because of GOD, it feels good!
I LOVE loving myself!